.::.let me kiss your finger...

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 05:57:51 GMT

i used to love to fly.
and now i feel like i know where i want to go in life, and i have this fear of not getting there.

flying back to tampa tomorrow.
i can't wait until that plane lands.

i love my family and friends in the KY, and have had a very wonderful, peaceful 11 days at home.
but it's time to go back to tampa with my other family, and my other home.

<3 happy new years. be safe, be good. <3

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 16:21:13 GMT

i ask my parents to send me to a school that is 40,000 for my AA, and 22,000 for my bachelors.

i'm taking 9 credits here at USF next semester, and it is 2,700.

sometimes, dreams don't become reality not because you could not achieve it, but because it just isn't going to happen.
period.

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 01:42:10 GMT

i don't write much in this anymore.
i had a beautiful Thanksgiving with my family in Kentucky,
and a wonderful 5 day break.

I just read a Meghan's Mountain email.
Michelle Turner is an exgirlfriend on my dads,
and was by far my most favorite of them all.

Michelle is flying to Houston in the morning.
Her current boyfriend was diagnosed with a brain tumor a few months back while we were in Seattle.
He endured chemotherapy and other treatments...
and the tumor has not shrunk, but grown in size.
So he will undergo experimental treatment in Houston.

Why it is that people suffer these awful diseases, I have no answers.

But I'll never go a day without being grateful for my sister's presence, and prayers for those who are not as fortunate as you, myself, and my sister.

So if you do read this...
pray for him.
please <3

yeahhhh

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 20:48:22 GMT

i got my computer BACK
and i've uploaded the last month of my life.

so here it is suckas.

i get drunk...

on hayride

at campus lodge 304!!!

for my little's pledge preview (she's so hot)

WASTED for Lisa's 21st

(1 bottle of tequila for 4 girls in less than one hour...= blackout)

i dress up as an emo boy.

I give my little nice things!!

I give kisses.

I love my crutch.

and i love getting the shocker.

k. love ya.
PS.... flying home on november 23rd AND AND AND December 17!!

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 16:06:30 GMT

27 days until i go home.
i am so terribly homesick for my family.

ive never gone 4 months without them.
i think the most ive been away was when i flew home valentines day, and drove home the first of may. a little over 2 months.

when mom comes it will have been 4 months minus 3 days.
when i go home for thanksgiving it will be just over 4 months.

i just want to see my sister.
the last time i saw my sister she was sleeping in a hospital bed on all kinds of pain medicine, and i wasnt even sure if she knew i was there.
and now she is working out and making the best of life.
i want to run around town and play with her.
and go to starbucks and sit under the covers looking out the window at the trees.

i am so homesick for my family </3

say hello to covance!!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:16:45 GMT

I just found out that PETA can continue to show the rediculous pictures and video of Covance destroying their "test dummies."
fools.

Go here for the full story about PETA's behind the scene @ covance:
http://www.covancecruelty.com/feat-USlawsuitdrop.asp

and here to learn about covance and how they are "helping the future" by hurting animals.
http://www.covance.com/

i watched the video for the first time about 5 months ago.
no joke, i watched it again about a week ago and had to turn my head.
these people, although some were "removed" from the company, are absolutely disgusting.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 17:23:21 GMT

wait for it wait for it
i HATE my computerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 05:11:51 GMT

if ever i had a *birth* little sister, i would wish her no different from the only little sister i'e ever known..
cady cornish.

i love her.
i know she doesn't read this, so for those of you that know both the both of us, i hope you understand.

tonight i finally told my little she is the main reason i stayed here.
after a year of heart ache, hardship, and just....hard times,
she was exactly what i needed.

<3

bopefully my camera is returned to me...
i need it.

and i cried today.
on the phone with my dad
and my sister
and my mom.

this is the longest i've ever been without a member of my family.

i've been blessed with the most amazing little and grand big...and definitely the best big ever.
she's keeping the family line alive; i love you....all 3 of you. we had 4 generations of the fam there tonight!! i loved it

MY LITTLE IS BETTER THAN YOURS <3

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 17:37:47 GMT

i had my family for the first 17 years,
and my sister last year,
and today i had kathryn.

i love you kat.

Day of Atonement

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 00:56:10 GMT

I have not been keeping up to date with my livejournal, as all of you know, but tonight is important.

Sean made me realize that I need to not only take the time while sitting in services to repent, but to sit here and get it all out.

This year has been rough, and people have given me their love, friendship, support, and prayers, and I appreciate everyone and everything.
I feel that I have made an enormous effort to rid myself of the petty things, and to watch what I say, but I know I am not perfect.

Yom Kippur is the Day of Atonement...the day where I attempt to break even with G-d for my bad actions. After all that he has allowed me to keep, and for everything he has given me, tomorrow is the most important Day of Atonement that I have ever experienced.

I am sorry to those I have hurt;
I forgive those who have hurt me.
I am sorry if I have yet to realize I have hurt you in any way;
I apologize if I have betrayed you in any way, at any time.
I regret, and remember, if I have said something innappriate that you have not yet heard of.
I apologize more than anything for those mistakes.

Please know I am not saying this because I am supposed to, or feel obligated to,
but because this year, more than any other year, I have been blessed with the best friends and prayers in the world,
and truly apologize if I have hurt you.
<3

YOU GOT PUNKED!

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 21:54:37 GMT

IM WAYYY TOO LAZY FOR A FULL UPDATE.

BUT THE WHOLE THING ABOUT ME GOING TO ORLANDO WAS A HUGE PRANK.
IT WAS THE MIDDLE OF BIG/LITTLE CLUE WEEK AND I DIDNT WANT MY LITTLE TO KNOW IT WAS ME, SO I TOLD HER I WAS LEAVING AND THAT I COULDN'T TAKE A LITTLE.
COINCIDENTALLY THE SAME DAY I WAS REACCEPTED TO UCF, THIS TIME FOR THE FALL 06 TERM.

I GOT MY LITTLE AND IT WAS THE COOLEST THING EVER.
I <3 MY LITTLE!!!!!!!!

HERE ARE PICTURES:
http://www.pbase.com/libstein08/biglittle_revealing

yeahhhh bananas

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 03:10:10 GMT

i'm sitting inside Judy Genshaft's house.
babysitting.

yeah.

i'm babysitting for the president of USF.

they got me!
i had no clue until i got here.
oh she is home.

hahaha.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 16:07:22 GMT

3 months.
until UCF.
i don't really want to think about it.
but time is flying fast...
and i just found out two days ago.

i'll never forget these people.

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 13:27:39 GMT

l'shana tovah, all you crew people!

things i am incredibly grateful for:
my family
my friends
my safety and healthy
my sister
my sister's doctors and medical staff
DMKAHB <3
.life.
.you.

off to services with josh.
it's not the same without my family by my side,
but next year..
we're going big!
I LOVE YOU SARAH MEGHAN STEINBERG!

BLOG #3/WEEK 4: Rhetorial Triangle

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 17:01:43 GMT

The rhetorical triangle is the bringing together the histories of writer or speaker, subject, and audience.
For instance, communication does not exist, or at least is not effective, if the audience is not contacted in a way that is effective for them. Whether or not the writer/speaker makes extreme changes, as in the case of Roberto de Nobili in the colony of Goa, one usually makes some changes in order to better communicate with their audience.
In the same way that a speaker/writer changes, an audience usually needs to open their view to the person speaking to them.
In example, de Nobili arrived in Goa and quickly learned Tamil, the language spoken there, wore the clothes of Hindu men, and become vegeterian. de Nobili did this in order to communicate effectively with his audience.

In ancient Greece, Aristotle came up with "three primary tactics of persuasion: appeals based on the trstworthiness of the speakers (ethos), appeals to the emotions and deepest-held values of the audience (pathos), and appeals to logic, reasoning, and evidence (logos)." These three tactics are interchangable with the rhetorical triangle.

BLOG #2/WEEK 4

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 22:34:53 GMT

Currently I am watching CNN and reading AOL news; I can't imagine what the evacuees from Texas and New Orleans are going through.
"Things happen for a reason" is something I say on occasion.
I would not say that about this:
A bus full of edlerly evacuees catching fire and killing at least two dozen;
thousands of cars, all nearly full of passengers, running out of gas, waiting on gas;
oh, and this... that goverment officials around the US are not willing to make "small" sacrifices in order to help victims of Katrina and Rita.
If goverment officials are not willing to give up money that they were planning to use in order to finish a bike path in New Jersey, for instance, in order to give people back "a life," then how can we honestly say that we are all sending our thoughts and prayers for those who need it most?

Thousands of homes are expected to be destroyed in Texas. Tens of thousands of people without families will have nowhere to go.

Here is a link to AOL NEWS, which has links to numerous other updates and what not, and it also has pictures of what is going on: http://aolsvc.news.aol.com/news/article.adp?id=20050918114309990001&ncid=NWS00010000000001

I don't know how it feels, and hopefully I will never have to.
But I don't understand why the people in New Orleans that are LIVING, more like STORED, in that devastated arena are still there. That seems like murder to me.
And President Bush cancelled his trip to Texas. He claims that he feels his arrival would delay hurricane relief... hmph. Maybe..

Also, hurricane Rita is now headed toward the highest level of oil refinery, in and around New Mexico. This could delay gasoline deliveries for months.
Doesn't it make sense that the higher the gas prices, the less people will get out?
Therefore, the less people get out, the less money and customers businesses will get.

Wonderful.

BLOG #1, Week 4.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 23:46:47 GMT

So this is my first blog for english class. I think it is a little strange to be using for this class and my own personal use; hopefully that won't be an issue!

Jenna & I drove to Orlando on Tuesday to see Hidden in Plain view at *THE SOCIAL*!! I have been waiting for months and months to see them play!! It was amazing. The Social is one of my absolute favorite venues, and of course HIPV is one of my favorite bands. Listen here at Purevolume.com

I took some great pictures, but since my computer is not working, I can't put any pictures online yet.

It was really nice to go to a show, though. I went a couple of weekends ago to Neptunes because my Self Against City (listen) boys were heeere!!!! I had a good time with them, too, but I've been waiting for HIPV for a long time.

Joe and Rob (lead singer/singer & vocalist) played their duet, and then Rob and the drummer stopped in the middle of another song and had a drum war. <3.

I made a list of all of the shows I want to go to up until Thanksgiving. Here is the list:

Oct. 9: My Chemical Romance @ Ford
Oct. 20: Nintendo Tour @ Jannus Landing
AND THENNNNNNN...
OCT. 23-24: HOUSTON CALLS WILL BE IN ORLANDO & TAMPA!! AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THEM!! LISTEN!!
<3 i heart okie <3
Nov. 11: Thrice & Underoath *playing together& @ Ford!!
Nov. 12: Armor for Sleep @ State
and last but definitely not least,
Nov. 15: Mae @ State.

http://www.purevolume.com/houstoncalls
http://www.myspace.com/houstoncalls
http://www.houstoncalls.com
*check them out*

SO, I'll be broke soon!! I wouldn't rather spend my money on anything else....except a little sister :)

still no computer

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 19:38:16 GMT

i still have no computer, but i have time for a quick update.

in really great news, the new girls' pledge preview has been changed to Thursday, so if there are seats open, I DO get to go home to see my sister when she gets back from Seattle.

i am still waiting to hear back from UCF; they have recieved my request to post-pone my admittance, so hopefully they will decide soon.

i am driving to orlando tonight with jenna and we are going to my favorite!! THE SOCIAL! Hidden in Plain View is playing..
so stoked.
seriously excited beyond words.

and i am in a rush :)

i turned in my american history proposal today for our paper that is due in november.
my paper was like the 12th that he graded, and i got the first "okay" to continue. his only criticism was that i need to double-space...haha. my bad.

okay, off to drive in the rain..... love you guys!!

ps, ginny and ali...by next summer i want to visit you two!!! lovesssssss!

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 23:00:23 GMT

hi my name is libby.
my computer is about 90% dead.
so i have been living off my roomies computer for about a week.

i am one sad little girl.
but my brother is a computer genius and is sending me down the software that i need in order to bring the P.O.S. back from the near-dead.

okay.
if i haven't talked to you all in a while, i apologize.

good news..
i'll find out superrrrrrr soon if i get to stay until the fall, and THEN go to UCF.
i am with TDizzle again. it's pretty super cool and i am happy.
U of L beat U of K (yes over a week ago, ASSES)
uhm.....meghan is doing well.

i am going to porniokie tonight. see ya.

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 17:24:22 GMT

THE BOYS ARE IN TOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yesssssssssssss!!!

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 19:04:50 GMT

i am so happy.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 22:35:35 GMT

so this is what i've decided.
that the majority of marriages in the United States end in divorce because we give up too easily.
americans are materialistic, needy, and greedy.
we love ourselves more than we should.
not saying that we should not put ourselves first, because our own health and safety is of upmost importance, but i just mean that we often care too little about the people we need to care most about.

this is my new outlook on "love."

my parents are divorced, and i was in middle school with my bubby - very in love with my poppy - passed away.

so i figure that the past like 9 months of my life have taught me so much about relationships.
i can't say that i have been perfect, and i can't say that i have been the worst in my relationships.
but i can say that, through my failures, i have taught myself to truly admire: to really look into eyes and not see, but feel them; to feel exactly how those around me hug, hold, and act around me; to know myself enough to know better than to say things i don't mean.

when i came back to school i was a little nervous... i didn't know what to expect.
over the past couple of weeks i have had the most amazing time with my girlfriends.
every night there is someone to be with, whether or not we go to a party or club.

i saw you and was taken back. i didn't really know what to think, how to act.
for the first time in a good while i wasn't sure what i was feeling.

i know now.
i can feel it that it's worth it.
i can feel it that it's not false words coming from my mouth.
i want to make you happy.
i want to wake up beside you.

you said we were perfect for each other.
for obvious reasons i can't say that i agree.
but when married people have problems, does that give them reason to divorce?

there are some couples who decide to decide on the same day that they want it to work. and then it does.
i want to be that statistic.

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 19:15:02 GMT

i feel so grose right now.

i don't watch tv much at all, but i don't think that is an excuse as to why i am now just starting to understand the aftermath of katrina.

people want to know where the help is.
we flew them out over-sea, to fight a war.
that's kind of crazy, right? because there is about to be a city-wide war on our own land.

i was watching the videos on video.msn.com....and the last one i watched just made me break down.
it was a reporter walking through the airport showing all the old, sick, some dieing, some dead, people waiting to be rescued.
and then he was called over by a 91-year-old man, and all he wanted was somethign to eat and drink.
and when they closed in on him, i swear he looked like my poppy.
</3 they showed covered bodies of people who died over night. the city of biloxi is a mess. people couldn't even afford to fill up their gas tanks in order to escape. so they died. they died because the buses weren't there to help them. they STILL aren't there. the buses that ARE showing up are just moving people 5 miles away. they are NOT resscuing those people. they don't even know where to take them. are you kidding me?? can hotel chains seriously not be big enough to let people stay for free? seriously!? are you kidding me. and i just feel so bad. people are going insane. really really crazy. the governor cursed last night at the goverment over a radio show. that's what it has come to. the feeling of hopelessness has passed, and anger has arised. get the buses down there and give those people a meal. and then i thought of it. the people that are already sick.. with leukemia, the diabetics, the paralysed..all of them. the sick can't always make it when there aren't diseases, when there IS food, a bed, and sanity. so what are they going to do when the healthy give in? days it took to get food down there. and after it was there, another for it to start being distributed. sick.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 15:10:36 GMT

The past two weeks have been so amazing, fun fun, and have made me such a happy person.

The past week, especially, has made me realize that Kappa Delta is not only a sorority, or an organization, or even just a family.

Kappa Delta is in my heart.

Without my sisters I would be so lost. I would not laugh as often, laugh as loud, or laugh until my side hurts.

Without my sisters my heart would not be as strong, nor would I as a person.

Without my sisters I would not be me, because the last year of my life has been so amazing. I have formed bonds with these girls and I cannot even explain in words what it is i like to wake up every single morning and have a dozen girls smile and say good morning, not because it is polite, but because they are just as happy as I am to have each other to wake up to.

Every night I have one of my closest friends, one of my sistesr, to say "goodnight" to just before I turn over and fall asleep. And last night I realized that the first night she is not here to say goodnight to will be a very weird night. I like having her to fall asleep to.

This week I have had the opportunity to share with hundreds of girls what Kappa Delta means to me. At first it was hard, because I wasn't really sure how to put into words what we are to each other. So I started off by talking about how they took me in from day one, opened their arms, then their hearts, and finally their homes to me. How they have been here for me through the best of times, and the worst of times. How when all I wanted was to pack up, go home, and take care of my sister, these girls supported me, not by telling me to stay, but by telling me they are here for me either way. So I stayed.

Yesterday was such an emotional day of recruitment. I cried during every party, as did most of my sisters. Celebrating each others differences. FINALLY someone put it into words what makes us so special. We celebrate each others differences, and take each other for what we are. Celebration is what makes us last. <3.

And last night after our recruitment day was over... dancing to old music...taking pictures....playing duck duck goose. Spinning until Rachel and I fall down laughing for 5 minutes before I can even get up. And who knew that washing dishes with other people could give you such insight into them. And then sitting in a room with 8 sisters making a poster, led to glitter fights, and them putting silver glitter over my tattoo, JUST TO SEE WHAT IT WOULD LOOK LIKE?? hahaha... And learning that I have so much in common with a particular sister, just listening to the way she talks about her exboyfriend.

I love my sisters with everything I have, and I believe in last friendships, and I believe in home.

I can't wait...an hour and a half and then our new girls come home to us.
They are some of the luckiest girls in the entire world.
I can't wait to show, and not tell, how amazing this family really is.

AOT.

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 03:05:35 GMT

uhm. a couple of weeks, not sure how long.
but rachel and i are exciteddddddddddddddd.